pre-emptive conclusion

it is a weird feeling to leave something you’ve loved, hated and most times loved to hate. this occurs to me even stronger, now that i am about to leave two things that share these characteristics…

with the difference that one never managed hurt me (apart from liver-abuse and overtime) and might someday even see me again. the other has finally pulled the last remainder of even the slightest humane affection from me.

why elaborte. i will miss this place. but there’s certain persons and ways i will not miss in the least.

set the trap,
hypnotize,
now they’ll follow…

though oh so very tempting to crush someone in ways they’d've never though possible, this is not me anymore.

the best way to take a grand old chill and lean back:
fuck it. no more wasting another second thinking about things future and past…

there is only one truth.
here and now.

if here and now is not good… without drastic changes, nothing ever will be.

and as if it were previsioned: the song blasting through my headphones as i read over the post before publishing is called “schmeiss es hin”… followed by “breach of integrity”… gotta love my song collection.